Dear Journal,

The person that brought me footprints to my heart was my grandma. When I was really little, I didn’t know her. I used to tell her, “Go to the kitchen!” I felt really bad after I said that when I got a little older. We got along great. We both loved to laugh and sing songs together. She used to come to my house every Thursday to stay overnight. Every Thursday night, we go upstairs into the Livingroom and watch ER on TV. Then on the next day, she would stay home and do the laundry for us. After I got home from school on Fridays, I would smell something good in the kitchen. She would make Chicken Surprise or we would order pizza. Every Christmas, My grandma would make pirogues. She makes them from scratch. We still make them till this day. My grandma’s favorite candy was sponge candy. Any time I eat that candy now, I will think of her. Then, when I started to do singing lessons about 5 years ago, she would love to come with my mom and I to hear me sing. She loved hearing me sing. When she got older, she couldn’t come and do the things that she used to do. When she moved out of her old apartment, she lived with other elderly people. My mom and I would come over there to see her since she couldn’t live with us anymore. She still had a blast with me. We would have a snack and watched movies while my mom was cleaning. A month before she died, we celebrated her 88th birthday with the whole family. She got a lot of stuff and everyone got her scratch playing cards for the lottery. She won a lot of money from those cards. I loved making CD’s for her. I made a Christmas one and a regular one. I love seeing her. She really made me happy. When she died a week before my birthday, I was shocked. I was really hurting inside. I was saying to myself, “Why couldn’t she stay alive for my 17th birthday? Did she plan on going?” I just didn’t know why. I still wonder why she had to leave.

Her footprint for me is music. Whenever I hear music any ware, I always think of my grandma (Busha). Her Halo is all around and surrounding me and my family. After my grandma died, we lost 2 other family members. My Uncle Ronny and my cousin Cliff on June 4, 2009. They both died 2 hours from each other. They are both up in heaven with my Grandma. Last year was a hard year for all of us. My grandma will always be an angel to me. It is sometimes hard to sing a song, because I will always think of her. I wish she wouldn’t have left me. I didn’t even say good bye to her and I love you. God! I feel like I hurt her of not saying that stuff. Oh well, I guess she knew what I was going to say. I have a feeling she is in heaven cooking great food up there. I love you Grandma and your halo is surrounding all over me. You were a wonderful person to be with and I will miss you very much. This is why I wrote what my favorite memory was about my grandma and why I love her. “Everywhere I’m looking now, I’m surrounded by your embrace maybe, I can see your halo, you know you’re my saving grace. You’re everything I need and more, it’s written all over your face, maybe I can feel your halo, and pray it won’t fade away.” Beyoncé – Halo

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